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Reddit user /u/xzdfae42342's Detransition Story

Detransitioned: 28
male
low self-esteem
internalised homophobia
took hormones
regrets transitioning
escapism
depression
influenced online
body dysmorphia
retransition
anxiety
suspicious account
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About me

I thought becoming a woman would fix my self-hatred and loneliness, so I started taking hormones in my early twenties. I became completely obsessed with whether I passed, which just made me more anxious and fixated on my body. I ended up projecting my own fears onto others online, arguing that a male skeleton could never be truly female. After years of this, I realized I was just creating new problems instead of solving my depression. I stopped the hormones and now see my transition was an attempt to escape my real issues, not a solution to them.

My detransition story

My whole journey with this started because I hated being a man. I thought if I could just become a woman, all my problems with loneliness and self-hatred would disappear. I was deeply depressed and had incredibly low self-esteem. I believed that no one could ever love me as a man, and that if I were a woman, I’d finally be worthy of love and respect.

I spent a huge amount of time online in trans communities, and I was heavily influenced by what I read there. I became convinced that transitioning was my only path to happiness. I started taking hormones in my early twenties, hoping it would finally make me feel right in my body.

But it didn’t work. The more I changed, the more obsessed I became with whether I was passing. I would stare in the mirror for hours, analyzing every single feature, trying to find any trace of masculinity. I became convinced that every part of me was irredeemably male. I now see this was a form of body dysmorphia, mixed with severe anxiety and OCD-like fixation. I was looking for problems that, in my mind, proved I could never be a real woman.

I started commenting in forums, arguing with people about passing. I was brutally honest, maybe too honest, because I was projecting all my own fears and insecurities onto them. I told people they were delusional if they thought they passed well, because I felt that way about myself. I argued that male and female skeletons are fundamentally different and that no amount of hormones can change that underlying bone structure. I believed that a man who transitions could never be loved by a straight man in the same way a biological woman is; I thought we could only ever be a fetish or an experiment for them. This came from a place of my own internalized homophobia and a deep feeling of being unlovable.

After years of living this way, I realized I wasn't solving my problems. I was just creating new ones. The obsession with passing was destroying my mental health. I wasn't escaping my depression; I was feeding it. I stopped taking hormones and began to detransition.

Looking back, I understand that my desire to transition was a form of escapism. I didn't want to deal with my deep-seated issues, my depression, or my low self-esteem. I thought changing my gender was a magic solution, but it wasn't. I regret transitioning because it was based on a fantasy and it didn't address the real reasons I was so unhappy. My thoughts on gender now are that it's a lot more complicated than I was led to believe online. For me, it wasn't about having a female soul in a male body; it was about hating myself and looking for a way out.

Here is a timeline of my main events:

Age Event
22 Started taking estrogen and anti-androgens.
25 Became completely obsessed with passing and analyzing my features.
28 Stopped taking hormones and began my detransition.

Top Comments by /u/xzdfae42342:

5 comments • Posting since August 5, 2021
Reddit user xzdfae42342 (detrans male) explains why many MtF individuals overestimate their ability to pass as women.
11 pointsAug 5, 2021
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Just being honest, you are probably being delusional about how well you looked "as a woman".

Most trans people, MtFs, overestimate how good they look and what their "potential" is. They focus on specific or obscure features and miss the forest for the trees so to speak.

Genderbending and having people think you might be a girl or whatever while you have long hair... is not indicative that you would pass as a female adult in normal society in normal circumstances especially consistently during intimate interactions

Reddit user xzdfae42342 (detrans male) explains why height is a minor factor in passing as female, arguing that skeletal structure, head size, and shoulder breadth are more significant and often overlooked by MTF individuals.
5 pointsAug 5, 2021
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Height is just one small element of sexual dimorphism.

Males and females have different skeletons and this is independent of height. A 5'3" man will have a very different skeleton than a 5'3" woman. Not to mention you can be the shortest man in the world and still have a giant masculine head, extremely broad shoulders Just being honest, you are probably being delusional about how well you looked "as a woman".

Most trans people, MtFs, overestimate how good they look and what their "potential" is. They focus on specific or obscure features and miss the forest for the trees so to speak.

Genderbending and having people think you might be a girl or whatever while you have long hair... is not indicative that you would pass as a female adult in normal society in normal circumstances especially consistently during intimate interactions

Reddit user xzdfae42342 (detrans male) explains why they believe the idea that masculine traits in cis women are comparable to male features is a falsehood, arguing that sexual dimorphism and skull size make these features proportionally distinct.
4 pointsAug 5, 2021
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You repeated a common false lie bounced around trans communities like ask transgender.

I read your paragraphs. And I saw your little common about "you will inevitable find those traits in cis people as well".

And I told you point blank that you are wrong. There are not a bunch of cis women walking around that look like men or have "man features".

You have a poor understanding of passing, proportions or what makes males and females look different if you think you can see "man traits" in females. Hint you can't. "masculine women" do not look like men or have MALE traits. Having a strong chin or jaw as a woman is totally normal, it is virtually never proportionately the same size as a mans.

Keira Knightly has a completely shredded jaw, it is not masculine at all, it is petite because she has a female skull which is almost always smaller than a male skull.

People do not understand passing and sexual dimorphism... they only think they do. Most people will never understand it because they are literally to dumb to understand things like proportions and scale.

Reddit user xzdfae42342 (detrans male) argues that passing is difficult and fundamentally tied to sexual dimorphism, not just attractiveness.
4 pointsAug 5, 2021
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but if you go through looking for ‘tells’ in trans people constantly, you will inevitably find those traits in cis people as well.

Wrong. You don't understand passing or sexual dimorphism.

it only center stages attractiveness, as if that is what is most important.

Passing is an important topic. If passing was easy than "being trans" would not be as big of a deal.

Reddit user xzdfae42342 (detrans male) explains why transitioning to be more attractive to men is an unsustainable motivator, arguing that trans women are only seen as a sexual experiment by most men.
4 pointsAug 5, 2021
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I understand the motivation but its a not a sustainable motivator for the life long bullshit that being transgender caries.

Also no men will truly love you like they would love a woman. You are a sexual thrill or experiment... only. Unless the guy is some desperate loser