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Reddit user /u/yet_another_femboy's Detransition Story

male
low self-esteem
porn problem
took hormones
regrets transitioning
escapism
autogynephilia (agp)
depression
influenced online
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About me

I started questioning my gender after learning about dysphoria while I was deeply depressed. My desire to transition was tied to a sexual fantasy and felt like an escape from my misery. I tried estrogen for six months, but it made me feel like a fraud because I knew I was male. I stopped and realized I was using transition to cope with other issues, not from true dysphoria. Now I’ve found a balance through crossdressing and feel better by separating those fantasies from my real life.

My detransition story

My whole journey with gender has been confusing, and looking back, I see a lot of patterns I missed at the time. It all really started for me with what I now understand as autogynephilia (AGP). For a long time, my desire to be feminine was tied up in sexual and romantic feelings. It was like I adored the idea of being a woman so much that the feeling turned back on myself. This wasn't just about clothes; it was about creating an entire imaginary self, a "femsona," that I could escape into. I also saw similar things in the furry fandom, where people create fursonas. It’s about building a complex, alternative self-image for companionship and emotional support, and for me, that was deeply linked to sexuality.

I was deeply depressed and had a real problem with alcohol before I even considered transitioning. I felt miserable in my own life. When I learned about gender dysphoria, I started to question everything. I wondered if I was trans. But the discomfort I felt about being a man socially never really appeared until after I had learned what dysphoria was. It felt like a self-suggestion, like I was convincing myself of a problem I didn't have before.

I decided to try medical transition. I was on estrogen HRT for about six months. In a way, it was the most effective antidepressant I’d ever tried; it made me feel pleasant in a way that SSRIs never did. But I think that’s because indulging in those romantic and sexual fantasies gives a huge dopamine rush. The physical changes were happening, but mentally, I felt like an imposter. Every time I dressed femininely to go out, I was tortured by the feeling that I was a fraud. I had nightmares where I was screaming at myself, "You are a man and you know it!" Knowing I was biologically male felt like it was killing me inside because I couldn't escape that fact. I stopped HRT because having the body I thought I wanted so badly didn't feel natural to me.

After stopping, I realized I had been stuck in black-and-white thinking. I thought it was either transition fully or don't transition at all. I've found a third way that works for me: crossdressing. I feel better now, accepting that this is my way. I see it as a temporary transformation, a kind of super power I can engage with and then disengage from. It’s about finding a balance between my sexual fantasies and the real world.

I don't think I ever had true gender dysphoria. I think I was using the idea of transition as a way to cope with other mental issues, depression, and low self-esteem. It was a form of escapism from a miserable reality. I also think my consumption of porn, especially things related to sissy themes, messed with my head. That type of AGP can be rooted in misogyny, because if you believe being degraded is part of being a woman, that misogyny reflects back on you. I had to learn to separate those fantasies from reality.

I have regrets about medically transitioning, even for a short time. I put my body through changes for a reason that wasn't solid. I benefited from stepping back and focusing on regular socialization with old friends. Realizing I was perfectly okay interacting with my old identity showed me I didn't need to be trans. The whole experience made me suspicious of online communities, both trans and anti-trans. It felt like everyone just wanted to project their own obsessions onto me, instead of sincerely helping me figure out what was best for me.

Here is a timeline of my journey based on what I remember:

Age Event
(Age not specified) I started developing autogynephilic feelings and used crossdressing and a "femsona" as escapism.
(Age not specified) I was deeply depressed and had an alcohol problem. I learned about gender dysphoria and began questioning my gender.
(Age not specified) I started estrogen Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT).
(Age not specified) I stopped HRT after 6 months due to severe imposter syndrome and realizing the changes didn't feel natural.
(Age not specified) I found a better balance through crossdressing without medical intervention, moving away from black-and-white thinking about gender.

Top Comments by /u/yet_another_femboy:

10 comments • Posting since December 28, 2021
Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) discusses how a controversial study linking furries to autozoophilia resonated with his own experience of using a fursona for AGP-motivated escapism.
7 pointsDec 30, 2021
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An unpleasant article caused great controversy in furry fandom claims all sexually motivated furries are autozoophiles.

The "Furry" Phenomenon: Characterizing Sexual Orientation, Sexual Motivation, and Erotic Target Identity Inversions in Male Furr

I considered it a BS until I discovered my AGP thing. Developing a fursona or ‘femsona’ is an escapism to my miserable real life. Sex is a strong motivator to the bounding of the imaginary self image.

Edit: And there’s a group of people called therian. They are like extreme furries who are eager to live as the animal image in their heart. And some of them cries for ‘species dysphoria’. I believe these people are highly romantically related to their fursona rather than sexually .

Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) asks a user who doesn't regret their transition for clarification on their social vs. medical history and discusses the definition of detransition.
7 pointsFeb 4, 2022
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So I assume you are initially androgynous and don’t need medical aids to presenting feminine? After you socially transitioned change the pronoun or something you feel it wrong and step back as a androgynous male again? And I’m a bit curious of ever you have medically transitioned.

If so, you surely fit into the definition of detrans and should be welcomed. If you can switch boyish and girlish look smoothly, maybe the gender identity is more idealistic to you. Please point out anything I said inaccurate or offensive. The problem is most people here are struggling with the side effects of medical transition, regretting manipulating hormones to just get your look etc. The ‘would be fun’ presentation is quite ambiguous and make people think you are a troll.

Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) explains how both pro-transition and conservative groups project their own obsessions onto detransitioners, leaving no one offering sincere help.
7 pointsOct 8, 2022
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And don’t forget about the conservatives: Wow I know you would be ‘normal’ again. I have been knowing the conversion would work. You finally realized standing with us is much better than with these ‘weirdos’.

Heck no! Seems no any group sincerely wants to help. They just projecting their own obsession to other people. In general arrogant people are all homogeneous no matter how they regard transition.

Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) comments on questioning gender identity, advising to distract from obsessive thoughts and socialize normally to find clarity.
7 pointsFeb 25, 2023
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I don’t think a dream is any kind of prediction. It just means what you are obsessed now.

I had once a time being in a same situation like you. Before trying transition I crazily questioned I might be trans. After doing it I questioned I may be not. I had both nightmares about transition and detrans. I wonder ever I had dysphoria because the discomforts of being socially a man never happens until I have known what dysphoria is. The whole thing was like somewhat self-suggestion.

Just distract from thinking of it for a while. Have regular socialization. Hang out with your old friends. If you are perfectly ok socializing with your old identity, you will be fine not being a trans. Feeling it is better than these stupid questions.

Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) explains the controversy around a study linking furries to zoophilia, clarifying that the arousal stems from an internal "auto" energy and an immersion with an alternative self-image, not real animals.
7 pointsDec 30, 2021
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That’s why his study controversial. Link a group he doesn’t fully understand to a highly stigmatized term while claiming not. His participants are not aroused by real animals.

I think the point he’s emphasizing is furries and AGP originate from the same ‘auto’ energy and used an awfully wrong word. We get a complex reliance to our imaginary alternative self-image including sex, companionship, and emotional support. This feeling is from the target we adore and lust but somehow immersed with our own body image.

Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) explains the link between autogynephilia, misogyny, and sissy porn, advising a user to separate fantasy from reality and discuss their issues with a therapist.
6 pointsMay 4, 2022
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I don’t think sissy is the exactly same as AGP. Autogynephilia is a big controversial term to describe all kinds of arousal and romantic attractions being feminine. The most tricky part of this paraphilia is, your personal view of womanhood will reflect right back to yourself. If you believe being degraded is a vital part of being woman, your misogyny will reflect directly back to yourself through autogynephilia, aka being humiliated as a sissy. Which is, not a real state of woman. I don’t agree AGP is purely misogynistic but the degradation type is. Crossdressing is another.

You may need to find a balance between your sexual fantasies and the real world. A precise point of temporary being your ideal girl and can disengage easily. I know people who suffered from AGP from their early lives. But come on! Three months of porn and grooming from 4chan can’t be like that. If you don’t want transition you will never do that. Talk to your therapist, talk about the porn messing you up, talk about crossdressing and everything related. If anything you disagree just bring it up, you paid for your doubt, not for a transition.

Edit: searched on Quora and I am sure there are woman into sissies… mostly for a humiliation and don’t think too much about misogyny. They just want to screw their boyfriends no matter how.

Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) explains his third way of managing AGP through crossdressing, rejecting the binary choice of transition or not.
5 pointsDec 28, 2021
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Just kidding. I feel better as a crossdresser. There is the third way to get along with AGP.

Sometimes I feel like I was always in a black white thinking. Which is unhealthy. There is never a transition or not critical choice. I have my way and my temporary cross gender transformation super power.

Reddit user yet_another_feboy (desisted male) comments on the potential for copycat suicides, warning that sharing high trans suicide rates may be counterproductive.
5 pointsOct 4, 2022
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Despite of intentionally distorted data, or faulty static methods, I wonder spreading these suicidal rates relates to copycat suicide. These tempting results should avoid to be shown directly to people who’s on the fence.

I noticed in my local trans community preparing barium chloride for committing suicide is popular. That’s really odd because everyone preferred the identical poison. That can’t be explained unless the copycat suicide widely exists. Actually informing of suicidal rate may do the opposite to prevent suicide.

Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) explains their experience with HRT, describing it as an effective but temporary coping mechanism that led to imposter syndrome and nightmares, ultimately advising professional psychiatric help for underlying mental issues.
3 pointsJan 11, 2022
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A hug with lots of empathy, my friend. Your experience is so familiar to me. I had HRT for six month but I felt I got the body I desired badly for a long time doesn’t natural to me. Every time I wanted to dress more feminine and go outside the imposter syndrome is definitely torturing. I thought I was just not passable enough to have the confidence and should wait for more time. I had nightmares of me shouting to myself you are a man and you know it’s the fact how could you persuade others if you don’t pass on yourself etc, while knowing the fact that I’m a male everyday is killing me inside.

I was highly depressive and alcoholic before transitioning. That was hurtful. I stopped drinking during HRT due to medical requests but I started drinking lately again. However the estrogen was the most effective medicine to make me feel pleasant again, even better than SSRIs -of course if my transition is a sexual thing because indulging into romance or sex is the strongest dopamine rush I can naturally get. I don’t think you have to relay on drugs to get over it. If you doubt having real mental issues like me and transition is just another cope, get a prescription from a psychiatrist. All physical changes except for nipples are going to vanish for not over two month, accordingly.

Reddit user yet_another_femboy (desisted male) comments that the core problem is men's inability to distinguish sexual fantasy from reality, not the fantasies themselves.
3 pointsJul 4, 2022
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it is not comparable to the porn industry at all

I personally don’t think that sexual objectifications by women to men is a problem at all

True. Like I said these fantasies/objections itself are ok. The major problem is most men have no awareness to distinguish sexual fantasies and reality. They don’t even want to, because the overall power of discourse is held by men. That’s where the unfairness lies but not men’s are sexual beings. Human are all sexual beings.