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Authenticity Assessment: Not Suspicious
Based on the provided comments, the account appears authentic.
There are no serious red flags suggesting it is a bot or a fake persona. The comments show:
- Personal, complex details: The user shares specific, messy, and interconnected personal struggles (schizophrenia, alcoholism, PTSD, detransition) that are difficult to fabricate consistently.
- Internal consistency: The views on dysphoria as a treatable illness, while rejecting "born in the wrong body" ideology, represent a nuanced and common perspective within the detrans community.
- Emotional reactivity: The user defensively responds to perceived judgment, which aligns with the expected passion and frustration of someone who feels harmed by their experience.
The account seems to be a genuine person who is a desister/detransitioner.
About me
I started transitioning as a teenager because I hated my female body, which was tangled up with my schizophrenia and trauma from abuse. I thought becoming a man was the answer and I loved the changes from testosterone and my top surgery at first. Eventually, I realized that changing my body didn't fix my mental health struggles, and living as a man became exhausting. I now understand I am a woman, though my body is permanently altered from my medical transition. My focus now is on managing my schizophrenia and finding peace with my story.
My detransition story
My name isn't important, but my story is. I’m a woman in my late twenties, and this is my journey through transition and now, detransition.
It all started for me when I was a teenager. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, which made my world feel very unstable and confusing. Around that same time, I also started to process the fact that I had been sexually abused as a child. I think a lot of my feelings about my body and myself were tangled up in that trauma. I hated my body, especially going through female puberty. I hated developing breasts; they felt like a betrayal and a constant reminder of the vulnerability I felt from the abuse.
I found a community online that introduced me to the idea of transition. It felt like an escape, a way to become someone completely different and leave all that pain behind. I started identifying as a trans man when I was 19. It felt like the solution to all my problems. I was so sure.
I started testosterone a few months after I turned 20. For a long time, I thought it was the greatest drug in the world. I loved the changes at first—my voice dropping, growing facial hair, and most of all, my period stopping. Living without a period felt like bliss. I saved up and got top surgery when I was 23. I paid $8,000 for it, and for a long time, I considered it the best money I ever spent. It felt like those parts were never supposed to be there.
But over time, the excitement wore off. I was still me. I was still dealing with my schizophrenia and my alcoholism, which I used to cope with the mental illness. Being a "trans man" became exhausting. It was like playing a part that I was getting tired of. I started to realize that changing my body didn't fix the problems in my mind. I began to acknowledge that I am a woman, a woman who just happens to have a deep voice and facial hair from the testosterone.
I don’t believe in the "born in the wrong body" idea. I think gender dysphoria is a real mental illness, and for some, medical transition might be the right treatment. But for me, it wasn't a permanent fix. I’m now considering going off testosterone. The thought of my period coming back is honestly terrible, I really don't want that. But I’m just so tired of living as a trans man. I don’t care what I have to do to feel at peace.
I don’t regret my top surgery. I still like my flat chest. But I also have to wonder if my desire for it was linked to my PTSD from the childhood abuse. I used to think testosterone was perfect, and I was wrong about that, so who knows how I'll feel about my surgery in another five years?
My schizophrenia and alcoholism are my biggest struggles. They have nothing to do with how I present my gender; I’ve had schizophrenia since I was a teen, long before I ever thought about transition. I’m trying to get sober, but it’s a daily battle.
Now, I’m trying to figure out who I am as a woman with a medical history that has permanently altered my body. I’m learning to accept that this is just my story.
Here is a timeline of my journey:
| Age | Event |
|---|---|
| Teen Years | Diagnosed with schizophrenia. Experienced trauma from childhood sexual abuse. |
| 19 | Socially transitioned and began identifying as a trans man. |
| 20 | Started testosterone therapy. |
| 23 | Underwent top surgery (double mastectomy). |
| 26 | Began to question my transition and identify as a woman again (detransition). Started considering stopping testosterone. |
| Present (late 20s) | Living as a detransitioned woman, managing schizophrenia and alcoholism. |
Top Comments by /u/zippertitties:
I do have ptsd from sexual abuse as a child so maybe it came from that? It makes me wonder if I’ll ever regret having too surgery or not now though. So far I haven’t and consider it the best $8,000 I’ve ever spent but I also used to think testosterone was the greatest drug in the universe so who knows.
I mean this in the nicest way possible but you look better off testosterone with the facial hair shadow instead of the full beard. You also seem to look brighter and happier off testosterone. I read that you’re also a gnc woman (I hope I got that right) and I think you’re on the right track for the look you want.
I didn’t say it was healthy I said I’m healthy. I have great blood work and no physical health conditions currently. Will that change as I get older? Probably but I’m not worried about it at the moment and I don’t think you should be judging me for that. Also why would I get my facial hair removed? That’s the last thing I want. This whole post is about me liking my testosterone changes but acknowledging I’m a woman.
My schizophrenia doesn’t come from the way I present myself. I’ve had it since I was a teenager before I even knew I wanted to transition. Be real here. Also I have a perfectly fine social life with friends who love me. You don’t even know me or what I look like. Come on now.
I’m not autistic but I do have pretty severe schizophrenia which is why I’m disabled and can’t work. I’m pretty psyically healthy other than my alcoholism which comes from trying to deal with my schizophrenia. I’m trying to stop but I’ve been in AA for a year and still can’t get past a few days sober.
I’ll consider going off t. Im not a fan of my period coming back though if im being honest. I haven’t had one in 6 years and I’ve gotten used to the bliss that is living period free lol. Im just so tired of being a trans man I don’t care what I have to do.
I’m not sure tbh. I believe dysphoria is a real mental illness and I believe that to treat that mental illness some people need medical transition. But to say someone is trans is to agree with the “born in the wrong body” bs trans people throw around and I don’t believe in that.